I’m not going to eat between meals and I’m not going to take seconds. Just today.e And I’m going to try it for a year to see what happens.
When that shutter closed in my brain and I stopped worrying about my ‘diet’, I used to be helpless. I’d walk into the kitchen to put a snack together, nothing special either — maybe just toast and cheese.t Or I’d go into the kitchen to get another spoonful of the casserole and another dinner role, almost a whole dinner when you think about it. And I often got the seconds and had a snack later — when that shutter closed, there was nothing between me and my urge to eat.
But now, I’ve got my responsibility to The Commitment. The shutter has tried to close — in fact, last night it flickered just a little. But rather than sliding into a dream-walking state and snacking like I wanted to, I was distracted just enough to snap out of it.p The Commitment whispered a reminder – “Don’t eat between meals or take seconds.” And I kind of shook my head, picked up my refried beans and walked briskly up the hall.
It sounds almost like science fiction I know. But, I think that it was actually just me taking charge of my own future._ I think that I was my own boss — just when I needed to be.
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Definitely inspiring. Thanks kb. {{kb}}
It is a very vexing aspect of human nature that “just 4 today” is so easily applied to eating things one is not supposed to, and in quantities one is especially not supposed to.
And the “being in control” is so successfully employed by people with eating disorders, who feel that they control so little, by God they control what they eat.
As do we all, yet how we struggle to use these “dual use facilities” for our benefit, as opposed to our detriment!
My youngest sister had anorexia, so I know exactly the dangers of “being in control.” I don’t mean to frighten you with my language. I wonder how I can encourage self-control, while not egging anyone on to taking it to dangerous lengths.