I’m not going to eat between meals and I’m not going to take seconds. Just today. And I’m going to try this for a year to see what happens.

The big thing coming up is the first Real Life meeting of Eat4Today at the Kansas City, Kansas Public Library (skip down to find the Eat 4 Today listing) on Thursday, June 1st. I’m very excited about it, I can tell because my tummy rumbles constantly and I’ve been dizzy for a couple of days. Oh, and my breath sort of catches. Hum, maybe that’s terror not excitment?

Sometimes I feel like I’m standing on the edge of a cliff waiting for my turn to jump.

As I drove to work yesterday, I pictured the whole thing from setting up the chairs (in a circle) to everyone (the 2 people who show up) just staring pitifully at me (and a clock ticking loudly). And I realized that I’ve got to come up with an agenda and a couple of conversation starters. Because if I don’t, this could go from my most exciting idea ever to the most pathetic experience I’ve ever had.

But it seems that opening myself to that terror also opened the path to ideas. And I started thinking about possible demonstrations, handouts & displays, and guest experts. By the time I finished driving home last night, I’d thought of more ideas than could possibly fit into an hour.

This cliff I’m standing near is very similar to the one I stood at a year ago when I was facing a future of uncontrolled obesity and barely controlled diabetes. Just as I did last year, as I look more closely at this cliff, I see a narrow path winding down the edge. It turns out I don’t have to dive — all I have to do is follow the path.

And take one step at a time, one day at a time.

(but I’m still scared)