I’m not going to eat between meals and I’m not going to take seconds. And I’ll walk at least 3 miles, take my fiber supplement and drink 2 liters of water.
[ Here's what I was talking about yesterday, for me Saturday's are weird. And always weird in the different ways. Maybe it's because I stayed up so late unwinding from the excitement of the Olympic Opening Ceremonies - or maybe it's because I'm just lazy but, I slept REALLY late today. ]
Drawing a Line in the Sand
I want to take today to say that a week ago I was feeling a mental edginess that always means that I’m on the wrong track. I’d been feeling it for a while but, last Saturday it felt a little more urgent. Like something was saying LISTEN to me — I’m not going to keep bugging you forever.
And I know THAT warning was serious. Because there have been times in my life where I let the moment pass and the next thing I know, a decade has passed. That warning was real — As a 10+ years diabetic in my mid-fifties, I don’t HAVE a decade to play around.
Today feels totally different. Rather than letting that moment drift past me I renovated this blog. I spent time considering how it should look – What it should be able to do – it (the underlying code) should work. I actually dreamt about it.
And I invited my friends to share it with me. Together we’ve talked and walked and counseled and consoled. We’re already making progress!
Oh — and that mental edginess? It’s totally gone.
Thank you for coming – for sharing your situations and goals . . . for drawing a line in the sand with me.
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Well, I didn’t walk 3 miles but I walked ONE mile through Costco — right past about 10 tempting hot samples and countless tempting treats! That’s gotta count for some extra miles. Right?
I always feel odd when I don’t get enough sleep and/or when my sleep time is shifted for some reason. It feels like jet lag.
In the 12-Step programs they talk about HALT–never get hungry, angry, lonely, or tired. Because our judgment is impaired when we’re in those states.
And as to your walk, some is better than none. Always.
Carolyn Kay
http://www.ManyYearsYoung.com
Hi Katiebird! The site looks wonderful. I just followed you on Twitter. You can add your url to your Twitter page so that people can click on it–I’d be glad to help. Have a wonderful day!
I really enjoy reading your narrative, KB. I can relate to so much of what you say. Same goes for our other stellar posters.
Glad to hear you’re good at listening to your inner messages now. I’m still not so savvy about that, enough of the time at least. Life has to practically get me down on the ground to cause a pause and a perhaps question: “Is there a problem?”
Congrats on passing up the treats. That takes a great amount of inner strength. Or, for me, picturing my self as the Sty-Puft Marshmallow Woman! Which reminds me: I accidentally discovered a new low-calorie treat – frozen marshmallows!! One is only 25 calories. And they make this very funny noise when you bite into them. You gotta be in a quiet room to hear it. Sounds weird, but try it – you’ll like it
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Our bodies are very wise, and yours apparently knew you needed some extra sleep. You’re going through so many changes lately that that’s not surprising…
Speaking of HALT, and in the interest of sharing, I have to admit I’ve been angry much of the day. Not going to say why, but just wanted to get that off my chest. I know it’s not good to go around angry, but it basically couldn’t be helped. I think it’s better to work through an angry episode, acknowledge it, figure out why it’s there, than to deny it, for me at least. I will have forgotten it by day after tomorrow, and it goes under the heading of “Life Happens.”